Back to Black Rage & The Quest for a Winter Coat.

I've discovered that dressing in black mainly causes bad reactions to people who don't know you. For the people who know me, my sense of style is just an extension of my personality.

This year I started a new education. Because of my grades I was allowed to do it in 3 years instead of 4. I was going to be in a small class so I've been hiding my dark side to them so they couldn't prejudge me.
I quit dying my hair and even bought a bunch of 'normal' blue jeans.
The first week went okay but when I stood up for a girl who they decided to hate for no reason, they discovered that I 'wasn't one of them'. After a few more incidents (for instance me standing up for a stammering boy, they all laughed at him while he was presentating) they went berserk on me, which resulted with me having to take a training to be more assertive (think about myself instead of others) and boost my own confidence (which I kind of lost thanks to them).

Did I make a mistake? I may now look normal to strangers (it does feel good not being judged everytime I walk by), but I feel boring as hell. Usually everybody recognized me because of my bright hair or because of the odd subjects I like to talk about. Nobody would say I was insecure, because I wasn't. Now I'm just a random someone walking by. Some people don't even recognize me after I had a chat with them. So it's true. Clothes make the man female (to the shallow).

Also what the fuck happened to society that standing up for other people means you're mentally weak?

Obviously me dressing more normal didn't hide my personality.
I just want others to feel happy.
That's who I am.

Then I guess my style of clothing won't matter too. I'd love to get back to full-time goth style, which is not going to be hard because 90% of my closet is black anyways. Also because I've met more open-minded people outside of my class. (Seriously how is it possible I got all the closed-minded in my own)

Winter is coming and my old coat has had its best time, so I've been looking for a new one.
I have had a hard time looking for a gothic-style winter coat. Most are ankle-length which I think is not always convenient. Others are just ugly or too expensive.

After a long quest I bought this one. I love the corsetry on the back. And the subtle zippers in the front. The gothy-ness is subtle but it still looks awesome.

I just hope it's warm enough to survive winter.

Wishlist

 

€100

I kind of like this coat but I don't think I'd be comfortable wearing a dead animal anywhere else than my feet.

I'm going to study Forensic Science!

Upside: Combat Boots. Every fucking day. My teacher highly recommends them. How awesome.

Downside: I'm not allowed to wear high heels in the laboratory :(

Downdowndownside: I won't see my boyfriend as much as I used to since I moved to another city :C

Thank you so much <3
(It's my birthday)

Dolly 50

I have been wanting these shoes for a long time.
I was hesitating wheter I would buy them or not or wait some more time, when suddenly Attitude decided to give 20% discount on all shoes.
THANK YOU <3
I bought one size up, since Pleaser shoes always run small.
I really hope they fit.
 
They will arrive in 10-20 working days... That's 2-4 goddamn weeks...

Update: They sent me a size too small... So I returned them... And got a size too big... What the fuck.

Update: I sold them and still want them. Maybe some other day. 

I don't even know what I'm doing anymore!

When studying for your exams gets boring

Stuff happens to your mind

SHOES U Y SUDDENLY ONE SIZE TOO SMALL WHEN AT HOME?!

They fitted perfectly in the store. Bought them on vacation. Can't return them. Now I'm forced to sell them.

I did manage to take this lovely picture though.

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#Queen Of Darkness Shirt
#Handmade skirt :)
#Demonia

Apologies to my dear (if there are more than one) follower(s).

I haven't been posting for a while. I have been too damn busy with school :(

I see a red shoe and I want to paint it black (Suede Dye).

Old picture bonus! I bought these creeper shoes two years ago. They weren't as popular as they are now back then. People even asked if they were part of a costume or anything.Oh, the unholy 2010's.





Anyways. I could be hipster about it and rant that I liked them before everybody else did. I'm not going to. I'm happy that I can buy platform shoes in 'normal' stores for reasonable prices instead.
And even wear them without people staring awkwardly at me.

However I didn't like the color anymore, so I decided to dye them.

Tadaaaahh.
The vapor made me kind of dizzy but it's been totally worth it.

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When I use flash, it turns green!

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Oh shit. It's monday.

Midnight Blue.

It matches my eyes. Perfectly.

~La Riché - Directions 'Midnight Blue'

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